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whatwas[The feed begins early in the morning, just before dawn. It's impossible to say who's recording, because all it captures is the sunrise. And it's beautiful; the colors are vivid, the day is cold and it makes everything that much sharper.
The sun climbs over the horizon at last and there's a flurry of dust across the screen. The PCD turns off when the feed times out.]
[OFFLINE: a note to Raven]
Hey, Spatzi.
I need to speak to the Higher Ups. Hold it together while I'm gone, ja?
[It's not signed because, well, she'll know who it was from.
There's also a note to Alphonse, saying simply, 'Sorry. Watch after Negi'. The few herbs Johannes left that Horst recognizes are mixed into sachets for Killua, Kotarou, and Negi. It encourages dreamless sleep.
If your name is Tyki, you get a key to Horst's bar and a note: 'Help yourself.']
The sun climbs over the horizon at last and there's a flurry of dust across the screen. The PCD turns off when the feed times out.]
[OFFLINE: a note to Raven]
Hey, Spatzi.
I need to speak to the Higher Ups. Hold it together while I'm gone, ja?
[It's not signed because, well, she'll know who it was from.
There's also a note to Alphonse, saying simply, 'Sorry. Watch after Negi'. The few herbs Johannes left that Horst recognizes are mixed into sachets for Killua, Kotarou, and Negi. It encourages dreamless sleep.
If your name is Tyki, you get a key to Horst's bar and a note: 'Help yourself.']
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Re: [Offline]
Date: 2011-03-16 03:54 am (UTC)But even if I talk about trying to go home, everyone gets angry.
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Date: 2011-03-16 04:00 am (UTC)Re: [Offline]
Date: 2011-03-16 04:02 am (UTC)I know that! That's why I promise I wouldn't force it! And no one knows how anyway yet! So, why?
[Why can't they trust her? Believe her? Listen to her? Even Cloud... It kills her to make such a wrong promise in the first place; she's never liked herself from the moment she first said it. And they still won't even listen to it, still make her keep saying it!]
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Date: 2011-03-16 04:07 am (UTC)You're both afraid of the same things. You want to go home, and to them, they already are.
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Date: 2011-03-16 04:08 am (UTC)I really hate myself.
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Date: 2011-03-16 04:09 am (UTC)Re: [Offline]
Date: 2011-03-16 04:18 am (UTC)It is! Some things are simply right or wrong. And I have to do what's wrong now! That's why I can't even like myself.
And they still yell about it! When I'm already doing what they want and hating myself for it!
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Date: 2011-03-16 04:20 am (UTC)Don't listen to them, okay? Just... know in your heart that at the end of the day, you did what you could to help them. They can't ask for anymore.
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Date: 2011-03-16 04:25 am (UTC)[Offline]
Date: 2011-03-16 04:27 am (UTC)[He had moved to kneel in front of her at some point, and he lifted a hand, letting his gloved fingers trail over her cheek lightly.]
Just... stay strong for me, okay?
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Date: 2011-03-16 04:32 am (UTC)