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whatwas[The feed begins early in the morning, just before dawn. It's impossible to say who's recording, because all it captures is the sunrise. And it's beautiful; the colors are vivid, the day is cold and it makes everything that much sharper.
The sun climbs over the horizon at last and there's a flurry of dust across the screen. The PCD turns off when the feed times out.]
[OFFLINE: a note to Raven]
Hey, Spatzi.
I need to speak to the Higher Ups. Hold it together while I'm gone, ja?
[It's not signed because, well, she'll know who it was from.
There's also a note to Alphonse, saying simply, 'Sorry. Watch after Negi'. The few herbs Johannes left that Horst recognizes are mixed into sachets for Killua, Kotarou, and Negi. It encourages dreamless sleep.
If your name is Tyki, you get a key to Horst's bar and a note: 'Help yourself.']
The sun climbs over the horizon at last and there's a flurry of dust across the screen. The PCD turns off when the feed times out.]
[OFFLINE: a note to Raven]
Hey, Spatzi.
I need to speak to the Higher Ups. Hold it together while I'm gone, ja?
[It's not signed because, well, she'll know who it was from.
There's also a note to Alphonse, saying simply, 'Sorry. Watch after Negi'. The few herbs Johannes left that Horst recognizes are mixed into sachets for Killua, Kotarou, and Negi. It encourages dreamless sleep.
If your name is Tyki, you get a key to Horst's bar and a note: 'Help yourself.']
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Date: 2011-03-16 01:52 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 01:53 am (UTC)[His voice, at this point, is almost painfully shrill.]
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Date: 2011-03-16 01:59 am (UTC)[Killua's own voice and the way he holds himself are a stark contrast to Negi. He's calm and quiet.]
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:00 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:05 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:06 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:08 am (UTC)It'll be okay.
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:09 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:11 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:15 am (UTC)[Give him a moment as he rubs his eyes. The tears are still coming, so it's not doing much good.]
... he's an idiot...
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:19 am (UTC)Grief makes people stupid. But you're better than him; I know you are. Because Killua knows it.
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:21 am (UTC)[Over those dreams?]
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:10 am (UTC)Besides. Who says he's giving up? Did he tell you why he was doing it?
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:12 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:24 am (UTC)It doesn't always matter if there's another option. Sometimes you can't allow yourself to do anything else. He's not stupid enough to give up this way 'cause he knows it's more likely that the animus'll bring him back than it is that he'll go home and forget. Here, death is just another tool, get it? He's using it to help himself out. It's just another way to fight.
Get it?
[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:31 am (UTC)... it's a risky way of fighting.
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:35 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:37 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 02:44 am (UTC)...
Sometimes something is so important to a person that they're willing to give up everything and everyone for it. If you're the one he's willing to give up, you've just gotta trust that whatever he's trying to get out of it is just that important.
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Date: 2011-03-16 02:49 am (UTC)But there are some people that I... could never willingly give up.
[Because that's just who he is. And unwillingly giving up memory of his father nearly broke him.]
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Date: 2011-03-16 03:03 am (UTC)[It's whispered under his breath. He'd been so close to going through with it himself before. He hadn't wanted to, would never want to, but in the end, some things really are more important. No matter how much he likes someone, wants to hang out with them as long as humanly possible, Killua Zoldyck would rather never see them again than be their downfall.]
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Date: 2011-03-16 03:06 am (UTC)[Video]
Date: 2011-03-16 03:15 am (UTC)Yeah. You would.
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Date: 2011-03-16 03:19 am (UTC)Am I... really that predictable?
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Date: 2011-03-16 03:25 am (UTC)Guys like you are the opposite of predictable.
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