[But right now, if he lets himself think about it, is nothing but panic and anger and loss.
It's a minute that Merlin isn't in. But how can that be? Just a week ago they were making magic bubble animals for Alice and sharing flavored rum.
Two nights ago, Horst fell asleep on the couch with him. He doesn't have to think hard at all to remember how warm Merlin was, how bony his elbows were, how comfortably he fit on Horst's lap while he fed.
Horst can't stop thinking about that now, so he doesn't realize how hard he's crying suddenly.]
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It's a minute that Merlin isn't in. But how can that be? Just a week ago they were making magic bubble animals for Alice and sharing flavored rum.
Two nights ago, Horst fell asleep on the couch with him. He doesn't have to think hard at all to remember how warm Merlin was, how bony his elbows were, how comfortably he fit on Horst's lap while he fed.
Horst can't stop thinking about that now, so he doesn't realize how hard he's crying suddenly.]
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