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whatwas[Ah, the monthly saga continues. The PCD switches on to reveal Horst, and a tray of food.]
Hello again, gentle viewers. I thought in light of this latest event, it was fitting to show you the proper care and feeding of a Johannes Cabal. The most important thing, especially when you lot are out wandering from dream to dream, is not to let him sleep too much.
Since he is always armed to the teeth with either magic or a very heavy gun, I suggest bringing him a peace offering. [He gestures at the food.]
Remember, never attempt this without supervision.
[He manages to balance the tray, carry the PCD, and go down to the basement lab without spilling a drop.]
Good morning, baby brother, and please do note it is not actually morning. Not that you would know since you haven't--
[The room is empty. All of Johannes's carefully gathered supplies, his clothes, his Gladstone bag, gone.
The tray of food is the first to clatter, and then the only sound just before the PCD is shut off is a disbelieving whimper.]
[Horst won't be answering anything on the PCD for a while. Feel free to find him offline but he, well, won't be anywhere near the church, he'll just be around the woods and on rooftops. Also if you happen to live at the church you would probably have heard noises from the basement. That was not in fact a pack of moose, just Horst. Destroyin' shit before he left. Like ya do.]
Hello again, gentle viewers. I thought in light of this latest event, it was fitting to show you the proper care and feeding of a Johannes Cabal. The most important thing, especially when you lot are out wandering from dream to dream, is not to let him sleep too much.
Since he is always armed to the teeth with either magic or a very heavy gun, I suggest bringing him a peace offering. [He gestures at the food.]
Remember, never attempt this without supervision.
[He manages to balance the tray, carry the PCD, and go down to the basement lab without spilling a drop.]
Good morning, baby brother, and please do note it is not actually morning. Not that you would know since you haven't--
[The room is empty. All of Johannes's carefully gathered supplies, his clothes, his Gladstone bag, gone.
The tray of food is the first to clatter, and then the only sound just before the PCD is shut off is a disbelieving whimper.]
[Horst won't be answering anything on the PCD for a while. Feel free to find him offline but he, well, won't be anywhere near the church, he'll just be around the woods and on rooftops. Also if you happen to live at the church you would probably have heard noises from the basement. That was not in fact a pack of moose, just Horst. Destroyin' shit before he left. Like ya do.]
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Date: 2011-03-08 10:33 pm (UTC)But he's not dead, he just--he's gone. [Again.
There are so many things on top of it, but those are the things that stick in his throat and refuse to be said.]
Can people live forever, Rhode? It's such a long time...so many things happen in just one lifetime that destroy so many people. Is it even possible for a person to live forever and still--still be who they are?
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Date: 2011-03-08 10:43 pm (UTC)[She has nothing to say about Johannes being gone. Horst's going to miss him, that's that. And she wont' try to pry out the other things he wants to say. She can answer the question though.]
To stay the same? It'd impossible. [No hesitation.] You wouldn't want to. It hurts too much. [She looks up from her shoes, giving Horst a level stare.]
I don't really remember who I was, seven thousand years ago. But I don't think I'd want to be that person again. If you can't change... You'll just age. [She crumples the leaf in her fingers and scatters the dust.]
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Date: 2011-03-08 10:46 pm (UTC)[Strangely he doesn't sound either defeated or resentful; it's just a fact that he has noted, nothing more. He sits beside her and dusts his hands off. It takes some concentration to get the mud out from under his fingernails.]
If I somehow adapt to be more like you, I don't think I'd mind it.
Was Tyki always like he is?
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Date: 2011-03-08 10:49 pm (UTC)Just this time.
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Date: 2011-03-08 11:02 pm (UTC)[She likes him however he is, really.]
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Date: 2011-03-08 11:10 pm (UTC)I hope he stays how he is for a long time, then.
Does everyone forget after enough time? Do any members of your family remember who they were a thousand years ago?
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Date: 2011-03-08 11:14 pm (UTC)Mm. [She leans her elbows on her knees, chin in her hands.] Some remember. But it's complicated.
[She doesn't want to talk about it. Why most of them have damaged memories, even her.]
What will you do now?
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Date: 2011-03-09 12:30 am (UTC)[That sounded more desolate than he intended, so he adds:]
I haven't thought that far ahead. I'm still trying to....
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Date: 2011-03-09 01:11 am (UTC)You don't have to think ahead.
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Date: 2011-03-09 01:24 am (UTC)[He exhales softly and leans back on his hands, balancing in a way a human wouldn't be able to. It allows him to look up past the soft glow of the lanterns.]
Maybe I'll go on a trip with Tyki or something. Poor bastard seems stressed, too.
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Date: 2011-03-09 01:42 am (UTC)Where would you both go?
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Date: 2011-03-09 01:56 am (UTC)[He noted that hesitation, and he looks at her with a small frown.]
Nothing to worry about. It's not like I could drag him out and kill him, even if I were that sort of vampire.
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:04 am (UTC)[And then, switching track.] It's not really going to get better.
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:08 am (UTC)What isn't?
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:17 am (UTC)The loneliness. It'll always be there until you see him again. [She's really cheering, isn't she?]
You may forget it sometimes though.
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:21 am (UTC)Is it that way with you?
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:32 am (UTC)Of course. You don't stop missing people you love, even if it's been so long you can't remember their faces.
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:38 am (UTC)[If he felt nothing for Johannes any longer--or his sister in law, or his parents, or friends--then everything they'd meant would cease to matter.]
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:43 am (UTC)Does immortality scare you?
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Date: 2011-03-09 02:48 am (UTC)If I'm going to live forever, then I'll deal with it. I just don't want to do it if it means losing my soul.
But on the other hand, I don't know if it's possible to be immortal and sane if you plan on keeping your humanity. Maybe there's only so long a person can live before they have to become inhuman.
--More than I am now.
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Date: 2011-03-09 03:04 am (UTC)Are you really losing your soul, or is it just changing?
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Date: 2011-03-09 03:33 am (UTC)[Offline]
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